Wow! One month ago on July 11, I married a wonderful man. One month ago I shared one of the happiest days of my life with my family. The bonus for me was that my boys were there to see us get married. They won't get to just look at pictures to know how mom and dad's wedding was like. Well, I guess our 2 year old won't remember much but I bet he'll be happy to see himself walking down the isle with his beloved cousins and "wuita" aka grandma.
We don't have our pictures back yet, but hopefully soon. Our wedding video should be here any day now and I am dying to watch it. We the brides miss the most important part of the day. I didn't get to see my handsome groom walk with his mom, I didn't get to see our bridesmaids and groomsmen walk. And the kids, I can just imagine how adorable they all looked! I know I was a mess walking down, although my nerves were calmed by a few people walking through the back of the cathedral moments before. I was hyperventilating a little and while trying to smile, I forgot to look at my groom! I was checking out the people who were there and then I remembered, wait what about D?? And then I saw him. I caught him trying to hold back tears. He didn't actually cry but he was just as emotional as I was.
I try to re-live the day as much as I can and every time, there is a new memory. One thing I don't want to remember is the things that went wrong. What for? It doesn't matter now and as soon as I catch myself thinking that we should've hired a different DJ or that we should have done this or that, I stop and concentrate on the good things. Why torture myself, we are married now and that is what we wanted so no need to go back.
Life after wedding planning is different, I find myself trying to find interest in other things. D noticed and he suggested finding a hobby, something I love and blog about it. For now, I just want to read. I love reading and I love it when I can't put a good book down. I started listening to the audio book The Secret. I'm not sure I like the whole listening versus reading, I feel like in missing out on something.
How do/will you spend your free time after the wedding?